Years and Years can pass and I note the major changes but I can also see that there are several aspects that yet need to grow, I don't want my branch to intertwine with another because I fear that it would stunt my growth, I would rest all my weight onto the other tree and stop growing, I fear that I am tree that cannot grow with other growing trees. I feel like I like when a smaller tree rests its weight and uses my resources to grow, that would make the perfect tree. However I am not ready to be that tree unless I do all the growing that I need to do. I'm afraid that all I want is a sapling, a plant of my own not another tree. Perhaps another tree that grows opposite me and complements every branch that I grow. I fear that when I grow all that I need to grow that no one's growth will mirror my own and I'll wither without blossoming, the seasons will pass me and I will never have felt rooted in a single area because of this fear. And then I remember that I'm a tree that needs water and good soil and that reminds me that an existence in this world is providing these resources for me to grow and something out there wants me to live and for that I will grow until I cannot grow no more.