These days have been hard

for the past few months all i could think of is of is another person

to get my mind of that person i turned to another person'

now i think alot about that person but thats not what i want

i miss the days when my thoughts were in finishing my assignments 

when i didn't wait days until the assignment deadline was approaching

now i think about people, i dont think about me enough

i need to think about me because my path has a long way to go

i think that i need to make peace with my past and my present

I need me right now, I need to be a little selfish again because i fear that if I don't ill drown in yes's and never enough no's

I will find myself unhappy, i need to start working towards bloom season so that someday my seedlings will not have to blossom so late in their journey

I want to be make peace with who i am and i've been distracted

I need to regain my passion for what i am doing

I need to work on my passion for living and relearn what it means for me to be alive right now and what choices i need to make in order to never regret the choice i made in the past