Tuesday, June 12, 2018

This was our unexpected goodbye

Would it be crazy if I started over once again
Life isn't limited by one and dones because then it'd get a tad bit repetitive and it is a privilege to be able to say that
Life will be many starting overs, the way sometimes friends and families need. There are times that things need to reset but only when it feels it is the time to do and only then.
I am letting go of a person that was significant to me, who unbeknownst to them helped me through a hard time. And I am grateful to them unfortunately I cannot stick around, I cannot give another such importance that I am not giving to myself. I cannot give someone effort who does not reciprocate effort even when asked. I care for them very much but I have to excuse myself from someone else's story and it will be my last appearance for the time being. They have the power to write me in their story but right now I am not a character of significance and I am that person for a few stories and that is okay, I don't have to be everyone's side character. This is a reflection of their story and what their needs are at the moment and right now I am not fulfilling any needs for them. It is neither of our faults that's just where we are at in our separate stories. Our goodbye have been sooner in the story than I anticipated but the longer I continued to try to keep their character into my story the more I would be preventing my character from continuing to grow. It is a step in the right direction, it might not feel that way but I know that I have faith that I make the correct choices for me and if it's not time will tell.

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