Don't know yet

There is moments where everything is uncertain, where anything is possible but things seem impossible and that is worry some, but then there are small moments like this that things slowly start to unravel and it shows me that this is the moment I was meant to be in, the world work in every way to get me here.
It might seem so simple to another who understands that they want to carry a child one day but to me it's you understand that it's the opposite. That I never want to carry a child inside me and that I don't have to defend my reasoning for that to anyone because it is my body and I am in my full mental and physical capacity to make that decision. There was moments that I have doubts because I will miss out on something that is part of an important point in so many peoples lives that I have chosen to abstain from. I don't entirely know whether something will be able to give me the counter reasons to why I should that would be strong enough to change my decision. But I know that if I do decide to be apart of the parenting group that I would have children that would not be biologically my own but I would treat them as such. I think there were alot of confusing times around this decision but I'm confident that this is the clearest I have been about something like this and for that I'm proud because there might be a time where I do need to speak to it and I need to be confident in my decision so no one puts a doubt on my certainty without having me reassuring then that this a decision I had made long before.