I am proud that I am able to say that I'm okay with death
Not many can say that and selfish as it may be, it is my life
I do not think about my death as often as I used to
It used to be everyday so it was only a matter of years until I got used to the idea of me dying
For me to die in an accident or by chance then it is destiny, it was just the day that it was meant to happen
That is my time, I can't be tied to the idea that I don't want to die that I have so much unfinished business
I think about how any day could be my last and that there will be moments where I would have not gotten things on a good note with everyone and that's okay
I need to worry that I give everyone at least one happy moment in their life and I'm satisfied with that
I'm tied to the idea that I want to live day by day and still have dreams but being okay with them if they don't happen because dreams aren't always meant to be
I want to live in the present as well as the future because I spent more than half my life thinking about the past and losing most of the best years of my life to it
There's moments where I wish my teenage years would have been different that I could remember only fun times but I think just as I was born to die, I was also born to live, born to be me, born to be my own person, born to be an experience of my own, I have a choice on what to do my life and it is to dare to do what scares me the most until i'm scared of nothing, whether that means jumping off cliffs with a bungee, whether it means falling in love, I will do it because I owe myself those experiences, I owe myself every chance that I have to offer