The Fucking Badass I Set Out To Be

I'm working extremely hard to be the person I needed when I was younger

I do not understand why for the life of me I cannot take a sincere complement

I think the day that I take a complement and genuinely thank someone will be the day that I realize that this everlasting storm has finally changed something that I considered unchangeable

I want to believe someone when they complement, I want to not think about every single way I could be much better, that other people genuinely appreciate me just for doing what I could do

I need to get better at giving complements to, I need to appreciate people more and show them that I value them, I need to be daring and this year and every year until I die shall be like that because I spent years doing the exact opposite.

I forgive myself for that but it is now my driving force to ensure that when it comes back I will win every single fucking battle like the fucking badass that I set out to be.