It is strange
A few days ago I thought I'd be celebrating getting closer to someone than I have ever allowed myself to be
I feel as though part of me knew that I did not love that person
I loved the things he did, I loved that he painted a future with me, I loved aspects of him but I could not accept his treatment of me and I am thankful for me
I am thankful that I am the reason that I'm in a better place now, I am thankful that I had the strength to end it, I am strengthful for fighting every memory or every part of me that thinks that it wasn't a goodbye
I had to say goodbye in my own way, that's not love, love would ensure we both got closure that we understood our reasons
I know that one day I will remember that I should love myself first before another person demands my love because I often forget that I am just as important and how I love myself is the way I teach another to love me
I can firmly say that I love who I am, I love that I feel like it is okay to cry, I love that I have some of the best support systems that anyone can ever ask for
 One day in the future I know that I will have reached a destination where I'll be able to help others better than I have in the past without damaging myself in the process but right now is the start of it and I know I look forward to it, I just need to remind myself of that everyday