My apologies

How can I be so good at apologies and so bad at the same time
I overthink alot and I apologize for so much that I shouldn't be apologizing for
How did I get to this point
I thought people deserved apologies, people deserved a reason
Whether they cared for it or not, I didn't want to ask why or have a reason to come back in my life
Those who get my letters aren't meant to come back and they never do
I think I was waiting on a person to argue back and tell me everything that bothers them about me but all people do is become silent
Then I am left with why's and needing a reason now I cannot continue to do this or wish for such person
I can't keep apologizing for everything that I do wrong for someone who was never willing to do the same, if this means being alone then I want to be alone
They say better to be alone than in bad company and I will no longer surround myself in bad company
Whether this means letters or not, I think it's time that that is no longer my thing
The only apologies I owe are to myself for doing to this to myself everytime someone hurt my person, I will no longer apologize to people that don't deserve it