Cooking is what I do for fun

Whenever someone asked what I do for fun I always thought that all I do is watch shows all day but that's not what I actually do for fun

I don't think I've ever thought of the things I do as fun, I don't really notice when I feel excited, yet know that I think about it I feel the happiest when I think about making food 

It is so simple but if I had the finances for it I think that I would make all the foods that I've ever liked just for the sake of trying

This is one of the things that I'm kinda proud, now I know I am not the best cook but I know that if I practice enough, I can go to a grocery store and know what to make just by entering a grocery isle

I want to get to the point were I know what seasonings work best with what foods, where I can just wing a measurement because I know it enough 

I know this will take years but I know that I do it for fun and not to make the best food ever but for the sake of trying to make it and perhaps correcting the mistakes the second time around 

I am pretty sure that that's when I learn the most about myself because I could make a mistake and I can teach myself to not get frustrated with myself over it and not be hard of myself because it is only my first time and the only one I am responsible for pleasing is myself

I realize that that's definitely applicable to everything else because I can't expect myself to succeed every first time that's too much expectation for any person, I can encourage myself to think about what I need to change the second time around, and how many times that it takes after that

I cook for fun, I cook because it is distracting and I think that I need to do more of that, I think that it brings people together, I think that is a good foundation to spend time and bond with the people around me, it might not be impressive to someone else but I think that it's very impressive for me to realize that now I have something to say and I need not explain it because I know what it means to me

I think in another life, I would choose some type of culinary career because of how fun it is, I wish that I had realized this when I was younger, but I am happy that I have realized it now, I think I need to remember that even cleaning supplies have many trials and errors up in the hundreds and yet most of those didn't give up then, I shouldn't give up on a food or on what my dreams are because I am not getting the results I expected but because I genuinely enjoy it