Roads

I cannot focus on someone else's action and what they mean in my life or to my person
whoever this person is they are responsible for their own actions, their own behavior
You are in no place to analyze why someone did something or what this means to you because you can only focus on you
You've forgiven whoever it is and that's all that matters anything that happens after that with that person, it isn't your place, that's not where you head should gravitate because the best thing you could do is make sure that you start healing
This doesn't mean drinking, this doesn't mean mind altering drugs or risky behaviors
This means finding the healthy enjoyable things you used to do, the person you were before or your path, it's okay to stop momentarily but don't stay there, you need to keep on traveling otherwise you won't get to your destination
Stopping for a while longer than you intended to is okay to, your allowed to, you may be tired from the long trip, people also don't know where you have started from. Only you know what's happened to you in the beginning of the trip and it's up to you if you want to disclose to the passengers, you decide when is the right time or at what pace you want to tell them about it. They don't need to know about where you started at that point they were just people that helped you on your trip either by giving you directions, keeping you awake, or distracting you and pushing you to do more stops than you intended to, then there are the people who haven't gotten off once since the trip started and those who will continues onto your trip but may need to go to a separate direction and they were only meant to be part of the longer part of trip. All of this is okay. All these people mattered. All of these people were real. They helped you and realize what passengers work the best to encourage you to get to your destination some helped more directly, other did so indirectly, while others you had to kick out because you learned that you would not get to the trip because they weren't following your rules and were putting you at risk. It is okay to be tired from the long trip, it is okay to make stops and get distracted, it is okay to get lost, what matters is your ability to get back to that road or find a new road towards a better destination all that matters is that you never stop until you know that that is your destination but know that sometimes it will take more than a few trips to finally stay in one destinations and that's life. It matters that you approach the obstacles, the suprises with the best attitude possible, if you have to fake it do it, it will eventually come to the point where you aren't faking it. The attitude makes a world of difference because that defines how you see your trip, how you react to those aspects of the trips that normally would have made you stop and wanted to give up. Now you won't always be ready for the trip but you know that every trip before that has brought you somewhere great and don't doubt it for a second, each destination was part of your map and you have the power to change it up when you feel the need to, never ever forget that.