I think so much about the future that I'm getting ahead of myself
I just hope the best for me, I have achieved a state of peer joy, happiness and I know that it'll feel short-lived soon enough, but when you get those feelings know that it wasn't, that for every bad thought or event that has happened to you, you have had good ones
Your brain works in strange ways, exchange those thoughts that convince you that things will always go back to a starting point, depressed, and that is not my default, that is not my center, my mental illness works its way into using this against you, making you think that you will always go back to that state
Know and realize that that was never your natural state, it never was, never will be, you are capable of feeling good feelings, you are capable of positivety, you are capable of happiness, you always have been, your head just wasn't taught to think that way
That for every moment you doubt yourself, you have to come back and believe in yourself like there is no other option, because that it what gives you roots to fight every thought that isn't one that is helping
All these thoughts in your head, not every single one is a definition of who you are, they aren't yours, your brain is trying to make that connection and make it stick, remember this is not a definition of anything you'll actually do, none of those thoughts are real
You need something to distract yourself in, you need freedom, these thoughts come because your brain is searching for something morbid to think about
Not every thought going in your head right now, is one you will act on